health check--->>> alive, nervous and worried now

results are going to be known in 3 weeks time. yeah yeah no point worrying as nothing can be done.. i know.. thanks very much. but i think that person that 'invented' the word worried is because he is worry at something as he cannot do anything to remove the awful feeling in him. SO MY DEFINITION of WORRY IS: the feeling of restless on something as NOTHING MORE can be done except to wait for the out come. the feeling of helpless, feeling of you-want-to-do-something but nothing can be done. SO WHY WORRY?? how i wish i can answer that.

anyway, have been spending my past 2 weeks at the A&E(accident and emergency) department in Dutches of Kent Hospital a.k.a Sandakan Hospital. there are lots of new experience there, watching people dealing with pain, doctors scolding those people for not listening to them etc, etc, some of the most interesting things will be i had my 1st ambulance ride(i was the one sitting down, not lying back there), had a boat ride while picking up an an old lady, watching those MA stitching up a deep wound and many more. i also have better understanding that people there are very friendly and they are willing to teach you anything you want to learn.

But, last friday, spending my time with thalesmic children at the day care center, they had to undergo blood transfusion almost monthly and usually it takes about 2 - 3 days, for the whole process from blood check to blood transfusion. there i didn't learn much from the nurses there, but i learn more from the parents and the children there. surprising?? Mr Vun, father to one of the children there, was telling me about his experience about him finding out his son having this disease. although he was speaking 'hak kah' and my hak kah language is very limited, but i understand most of his points. his son now 19 is small in size and i even thought he is just maybe 12 or 13 years old only. he did many things for the past 19 years and put in much effort in making all thalesmic children feel better. but thats not the point. the point here is doctors and nurses there i admit they know the treatment better than many of us. but the parents knows more than them in how the child feel and what is the child facing.

each time one undergo the transfusion, a soft needle have to be inserted into the green vein on the back of their palms. and not all needles put in will find them. some have to be pock up to 5 times and still can't get the right vein. the record from what i heard, 14 TIMES on a single time. children age of 3 years old will not escape this. there was a cute little girl, Vicky which is also thalesimec too, she cried so loud like its no one's business. thinking back, i felt lucky. i am lucky that i didn't have to go through this process for the past 19 years, i felt lucky that i didn't have to rely on donated blood to stay alive, i felt lucky that i didn't have to spend 2 days on the bed with a needle in me and a pint of blood hanging above me. i felt lucky...

the only thing i can do to help them now is by donating blood. haha.... well.. i don't know what to say, but they need it. you have it. get more info here