Tuesday, December 30, 2008

land below the wind~

december has come to a gentle ending where the year of 2008, there's been lots of changes happening around life here. being staying away from malaysia for almost 10 months, missing contact of malaysian's sun, rain and air but somehow, i don't really miss the food there yet as much as others. maybe i already accepted that i wont be tasting any of them for the next 20 months after i leave the country. after all, cooking my own meals here almost makes it taste like home anyway. somehow i feel that those people that really says they can't find good food in adelaide is kinda over reacting. those that say's adelaide is boring and can't wait to leave here, is also over reacting.

nevertheless, i came from a place where many would say its a 'jungle' yet i am also a frequent traveller back to the pearl of the orient. i would say i experienced what a developed place and underdeveloped place looks like. recently i receive an email that basically tells the story on how the state i grow up in was being marginalised by others. nevertheless, that place thought me that we could make many things out of what we have and the grass is not always greener on the other side. the town i grow up in have no night life, the cinema was only 2 years old, we don't have any shopping complex nor place that sells branded clothes. we have no white beaches or five star hotels or resorts. yet we have an airport big enough to land 737's and is accepting flights from Philippines as well. We also have the one of the few sanctuaries that house the near extinct orang utan. a turtle nesting ground is only a few minutes boat ride from the town im staying.

i remembered that our power supply and water was constantly cut. thought i lived in a terrace house, i experience studying by the candle light and taking bath tru pails of water. i enjoy those moments where we could play with the melted wax and make shapes out of it. i constantly held my laughter silently when i hear people in 'bigger' cities never know how to use a match stick. i stayed in a housing area where in the evenings people will go out to play and jog around the park. there we still see kids chasing each other along the road without worrying about the cars and no over protective parents treating everyone on the road as criminals hiding their child from the sun as have our own security guard on partol every hour around the housing estate. yet we have full access of the Internet, and we also do stuff what other kids in larger cities do with their computers such as playing online games, downloading movies, and not to mention blogging. we have the same internet access as larger cities in my country.. we also have astro services and also those 'large-satellite-dish receivers' operating around. what makes you more advance than us anyway??

i went to a primary school in a building with a huge crack on the floor at the back, predicted to collapse soon, yet the building is still standing today, and the crack is still visible till this very minute. my school don't have a football field, or a big car park, situated next to graveyards and was apparently used as a hospital during the WW2. yet, we love our school very much. we have 7 cubicles for guys and about 8-10 for girls shared by almost 1000+ students. the toilet was only recently given a brighter tiles 4 years ago. 2 of the roads to our school are always at risk of landslide during rainy sessions and the other access is only a 2 lane road which will be pack with school buses and parents cars during the end of the day. given all this circumstances in a city, i wonder if anybody still wants go come to our school to study. yet our school was the best school with the most top scorers in my town at least during my time. many got scholarships and studying overseas in fields such as medicine and engineering.

with all the shortcomings in the town i grew up with, we learn something most of us never had the chance to do so. we learn how to compromise, how to make the best of everything and learn how to give and take from each other. best parts of all, we experience jungle tracking right behind our school, a 6 hour hike from our school to the housing estate I'm living in, which includes real jungle experience without a walking trail, into rivers, and also to go down a 3 story high cliff. this trail was 'open' by our school's scout team. we experience starry nights during blackouts, we experience candle light dinner with family, with the sound of cricket and other insects accompany us and not the sound of the TVB drama behind.

the place i grew up in wasn't the place i was born in. yet i like that place very much. there are so many things to do there. its not that i don't like the pearl of the orient. i love the island very much too, but both have their specialities to be love. for those that says sabah is uncivilised, please check the internet you are so proud of for the real facts. if u see sabah there, u see that we also have access to the internet. just to let you know, people in adelaide knows where is north borneo(sabah) much more better than where is malaysia. and you want to know how i let people know where im from?? 'im a malaysian from north borneo...'

hmm.. im sorry that this sounds like a hate post... =/

Monday, December 8, 2008

bits n pieces of dec




right, exams are over, and the dreadful wait for results are here. i guess, everything should be fine right. sometimes i really wonder, whether wishing each other all the best really make a significant sign in the exam results. is that the more people that wish you 'all the best' would lower the probability of you doing badly in exams?? sound superstitious thou, nevertheless, i guess one wishing another all the best in one of the most stressful situation in life will not bring much harm right?

holidays have begun, and most of my friends are already back in malaysia. saturday night, i was rushing for one of the big projects me and my friends made for other friends. looking back into the project, i realised that i already start to miss them. there are a few that i have been seeing them for the past month almost daily. through the weekly gathering, random beach outings, group studying and so on. well, i've already being prepared that i'm not going back this year, and already have plans for the 3 months break, somehow still can't ignore the fact that i am going to miss them. and guess what, i already miss them already =.=

another thing is, i guess i have no fate in group trips. since form 3, i never join a group trip with my friends, i have no idea why that happens, every year, there are trips planed by my friends, i really wish to go and really love to join them, yet, somehow something prevented me to do so. form 3 was a trip to climb mt kinabalu, form 4 was a camping trip, form 5 *cant remember* 2006, *can't remember* and 2o07 was a KK trip... i guess, im kinda immune to tell people, "oh im sorry i can't join you all.. i (inserts reason). i will join another time okay??" i really wonder whether there is another time. there is also a trip early next year where group of my friends will be going along west malaysia, but i wont be around as well. i guess, i have really no fate on going on trips with my friends. sigh~ nevertheless, i wish they will enjoy themselves and have fun. yet be careful and take care always.

right.. Christmas is here, and parents will be popping over this saturday. so i guess december will be quite occupied. not forgetting the 2 jobs i have in line now. i wonder how im suppose to balance all of them.. hahaha.. well, i guess i will somehow. plans for the holiday?? will be exploring adelaide with my parents, work, drown myself with anime and drama and i guess, maybe learn abit of chinese right?? after all, im a 'semi banana' now.. and should upgrade to a 'one quarter banana' already. hahaha.. till then, short updates from me..

oh, i will be cleaning my blog links soon, so those links that i can't gain access will be.. erm.. 'put aside' so yea, let me know if the links are functioning okay.. *thou i don't think any1 will do so..*

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Houseflies~

as spring arrives and temperature hits above 27 degrees, its interesting that there are amazingly plenty of housefly flying around in adeaide. and interestingly as well, these houseflies are just like thermometers.. if the temperature is below 25 degrees, you wont even see one of them around and if temperature increases, the hotter it goes, the more housefly there are. these houseflies are basically irritating, stupid and erm... slow. nevertheless, they are all really irritating if they keep flying around you. EVEN when you get a nice shower and you smell like a garden of flowers they will still fly to you.

looking at the number of housefly around, you will notice men and women practicing all kinds of methods to swap them away... below are the list that kinda exist

Thousand Arms Buddha Housefly Shield
Although there are only 2 arms in every human, if there are a large number of housefly this method is highly recommended. by moving your arms randomly in a very fast motion, in all directions, you can almost swap all the houseflies away into your surroundings. not only houseflies, all other movable living organisms especially humans will also move away in fear of this highly specialize martial art. this thousand arms buddha housefly shield also can be use if you only have one arm that is free. just move the free arm twice as fast and twice as random to have the same effect.

Tai Chi Housefly Kung-fu
a slow and gracious yet lethal to housefly move which usually guarantee peace from houseflies. usually most effective if there is only one housefly around. by moving your hand gracefully and slowly near to the housefly and with a sudden increase speed and power, whack the housefly away. this usually causes the housefly to lose the flight path and hit to something solid and fall to the floor. effective when you are sitting in a fix position and by hitting the housefly to the near by wall or table, it will for sure not disturb you for the 2nd time. Or, if you have mastered this kung fu, you can aim the housefly at someone near by and hit it across the room into another person's face. practice needed for aim and accuracy.

The Venous Fly Trap.
by the name, its quite similar to the carnivorous plant where a trap is laid to trap/kill the housefly. so what kind of trap can be laid?? well, these trap (like the venous fly trap) must have a hinge that allow 2 surfaces to contact in the middle. my recommendation is a book.. a think hard cover book. open the book at about middle... and hold it right in front of you with a hand on each side of the cover.. once a housefly flies over the page.... SNAP~ and you will have a dead housefly with you in that page. *warning* flatten houseflies produce lots of 'juices' so.. beware. recommended that you have lots of patients and a moderate number of houseflies around. library books are recomended (since its not your book anyway =x)

Chemical Warfare
this method is more of a preventative measure than to kill itself. basically we will be using chemicals to prevent houseflies to get around us. and we are going to use chemicals that could be easily bought over the counter. Insect repellents have been proven functional in preventing house flies from attaching on your clothes and skin. just spray some on to the clothes or apply them to the skin and you could walk freely without being bothered by those flies. the good side is, others wont think you are crazy waving your hands around the street, but, on the other side, if you are going to a date, or an important meeting, try not to use this method as it also carries a strong insect repellent smell along. and depending on the type n brand you use, usually it last about 2 to 3 hours depending on conditions. recommended right before going out of the house on a very warm day.

The Blow Fish Method.
this method is recommended when you have your hands full. as houseflies are small animals, they are easily being blown away by a small amount of air. this method allows you to remove the housefly quite easily. if you see a housefly flying around, and land on your nose, shape your lips and blow a short and strong gust of air towards it. this can also be if the housefly landed on other parts of the body (hands, lips, maybe forehead) or also on places like your notes and your coffee mug. just aim and blow towards the housefly and the housefly will be gone~ if you are good, you can also blow the housefly off course mid air *training needed*. recommended for a small amount of housefly and only for people with a large lung capacity. not recommend for those with respiratory disorders.

there are a few more not so popular methods around, but strongly recomended these 5 methods above.. have fun trying =)

disclaimer note: writer will not be responsible for any injuries/accidents/anything-bad-happen to users of the methods describe above.

p/s: no houseflies are harm in the production of this post.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

nov to nov~

HIAAAAAaaaaAAAaaKKKKKKkkkKKKkKkKK!!!!!!
my 1st paper is tomorrow!!!!! in less than 22 hours time, i will be starting my 2nd sem final exams.. which marks the end of my 2nd sem study period. of course if everything goes well that is. *fingers cross* *toes cross* *eyes cross*

thinking back, throughout this year... its already 9 months im in adelaide.. kinda fast huh?? still quite clearly remember the last november at this particular time, i was rushing to finish my workshop teaching materials, shopping, preparing the booklets and all the preparations to face 22 primary school students... now, i guess the oldest ones already finish their 1st government exams.. the UPSR and preparing to enter the what i call, one of the best times of their lifes.. secondary school.. sure sounds fun huh?? oh.. in fact, their results are already out.. wonder how did they go.. hmmm...

secondary school for me is 8 years ago.. makes me sounds so old.. 8 years ago.. im still a short think guy.. running all over the school... jumping from stairs, crawling under tables, shouting on top of my lungs, and.. of course.. not doing home works.. haha.. naughty me.. moving up, form 3 and form 5, i took quite a number of responsibilities in class (best class cleanliness monitor.. right gang??) as well as my uniform body.. which i should say.. played an important role in shaping what im now.. of course.. the other part that shaped me is the way my parents brought me and my brother up.. sure that played a very important role in bringing what i am now. nevertheless, im quite happy with what i have now.. thou there are short coming of myself, but i guess, I'll manage myself with and around them..

anyway, better end this random post here... break time over... =). oh.. and dats a pic that shows the difference between the 8 of the keboringanz members.. spot me.. and let me know if i change ya?? hahahaha. next post will most probably after the 26th Nov. till then~

p/s: volunteers to wake me up tomorrow at 7 please??? 7 adelaide time.. haha

Saturday, November 8, 2008

you know when ur tired when~

you know you are tired when:
~you made the uni library you 2nd home for the past 3 days..
~you made good friends with the yellow and green highlighters...
~your daily intake of fluid are from the uni water sources.... *which includes coffee*
~you start locking people outside your study area in the cold because its too tired for you to open the door for them...
~u rather walk back from uni than waiting for the bus/tram because you can't wait anymore longer before trashing onto bed
~you walk so fast that you over take so many people for the same reason above.
~you start to ignore everyone on your instant messaging list
~your writing changes from round single letters to long-worm-like words
~you rather use the touch pad than the external mouse because you are unable to leave your palm off the table.
~you feel that your stomach is like a washing machine as your meals are all not as normal as before... or is it because of the coffee...
~you keep looking for the the heart structure in the kidney chapter in the textbook. and wonders why the heart looks like a bean and not like the usual ones...
~you stand at the pedestrian crossing even the light is green and keep wondering why all the cars stop and everyone is crossing the road.
~you sigh so much that your study mates around you turn blue and pale as they are unable to breath due to the high concentration of carbon dioxide you produce from all the 'sigh-ing' sessions
~you make conversations between two textbooks using their authors as names and introducing them to each other such as.. "tortora, meet martini...." (both are physiology textbooks)
~you cant be bothered to have better meals that you just eat what ever that is reachable by your extended arms
~you make coffee drinking a religion and drinking cupS of them per day shows that you are loyal to it. and you fall in love with the coffee vending machine.....
~you file a divorce towards you laptop/facebook/msn
~you will find time to sleep such as while waiting for the tram, boarding the tram, in the tram and leaving the tram.. all with the eyes close.. or at lease half close.
~~yyoouu sseeee ddoouubbllee lleetteerrss wwhheenn yyoouu rreeaadd yyoouurr nnootteess...
~yyoouu wwiillll ffaallll aasslleepp wwhhiilleeeeeeeeeee blooooooooo
*posted this using the subconscious mind*

all the best people.. for your exams... hope this could help you de stress a little.. ^^v

Friday, October 31, 2008

the orange

sigh~
there is no exact way to describe life now. there are good moments yet, there are times when you wish for better moments to happen yet... nothing happens. and when there are better moments you thought that will be the best, yet the moment went by so quickly that you wont be able to enjoy that moment. exams are in the corner, holidays are coming, summer is coming, and so on, yet, the excitement isn't there. motivation is what i really need now. there are many flaws in this half of the year. being attached to so many things and also people isn't really a good thing. yet, not being attach is just like a floating spirit floating around pointlessly.....

is not that im against exams and stuff, i know exams sucks, and yes it sucks worst when there are USELESS un important subjects to be tested. what sucks the most is when there are 2 un-important subjects to be tested back to back after my anatomy paper!!! i really wonder how they arranged the exam time table, its either they are really smart or they are really ill-hearted and wish to see how all of us die horribly with our brain juice leaks out through all the orifices in our heads. thinking about it, i think i will be a walking brainless podiatry student by the end of my exams... and all my brain can be found in my exam scripts.

if i were to describe life now, i would say, its kinda blank. is not that its stagnant or something, is just that i can't really see the point the stuff im doing everyday at the moment. well, others might look at my life now as kinda good, uni, out with friends, sports, games, meals, home, study etc etc... is not that they are all pointless, i love going out with my friends, playing sports, go on jogging n stuff, but, i guess, the thought that exams are there just splash everything out. exams are really joy killers... they really are~ isn't it sad?

right.. im not the only one having exams.. everyone is.. so suck everything up and stop complaining right?? i guess so.. anyhow, i came across this relaxation method through 1 of my un-important(TOTALLY NOT IMPORTANT) subject's lecture earlier in this semester. its called Five Finger Relaxation Technique. there are 4 questions to be answered. and it only takes about 2 or 3 minutes to go through.. apparently its useful right before the exams while waiting for the exams to start.

blogging its been so hard lately, maybe im trying too hard to think of something to blog about. blogging should not be a commitment, and by right should be done freely, i guess, i am deviating from that point now... thinking too much, why can life be much more simpler at times?? sigh~

sigh, another random post. i guess i will keep quiet for the time being.., im not in a mood to produce a happier post this time..... best wishes to those that are taking exams soon, and for those that are crashing their assignments, all the best as well... i guess, all of us needs them =)

Friday, October 24, 2008

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*thinks for while*
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ok.. i give up blogging for to day... words just refuse to come out of my brain now...
*sigh*

Monday, October 20, 2008

BIG SPLASH 08'

BIG SPLASH 08'
few days before....

secret meeting between evil planner, masterminds and their underlings
location : facebook...

the walking orange has been a threat to our society.. we must handle him with care
*mummers of agreements*
evil planner... do you have any methods that we can take him down??
hmmm.... we can use our secret plan.. which is......
YA YA YA YA YA!!!!!
hmmm.. good plan... alrite... we will go ahead with your evil plan!!!

muahahahahahaha.. *evil laughs*

target objective: drench the walking orange
location: next to torrens river
time: approx 0830 hours
code name: The Walking Orange Big Splash Event 08 Big Splash 08'

1 day before splash day
location : UV apartment basement
~alrite people we have only one chance to deal with this.. timing is an important factor..
~group 1.. are the water bombs ready??
~yes sir.. bombs are ready to go on command. we are using a new version which has a higher efficiency.
~group 2.. hows research on chemical-W going?
~we have few missing ingredients, but we have substitute it with Chemical-X for a more potent effect
~good.
~sir!! I WAN BALLOONS!!!!
~huh?? balloons.. for what?? we are doing big business here.. no balloons!!!
~I DONT CARE!!! I WANT BALLOOOOONNNNNSSSS!!!!!
~fine fine... balloons will be on you..
~yippie~~~ ballooons balloooonnss balloonnnsssss
~tomorrow is the day... the day that the walking orange will never forget for the rest of his life...
MUAHAHAHAHAHA *evil laughs again*

~1 hours before Big Splash 08'
location: next to torrens river
alright people, the walking orange is on the move.. evil planner has just reported in!!
group 1!! prepare the bombs!!
group 2!! is chemical X ready?? good!!
group 3!! balloonss!! where are the ballooonnnnsss???!!!
alrite.. final briefing!! the code name is TAKE PICTURE!!! understand??
YES SIR!!!
everyone!! this is the day.. the day we must remember... the day that you can splash the walking orange!!! the day that you must wet him.. no matter what given reasons!! today is the day!! are you all ready???
YEAH!!!!! SPLASH!!! SPLASH!! SPLASH!!
the walking orange has fallen in our evil trap as planned.... he is going to regret it soon...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA..... *evil laughs again!!!*

~10 minutes before Big Splash 08'
location: next to torrens river
ok people.. prepare yourself.. walking orange has reach check point 2. crossing the bridge..
*sound of sirens*
remember the code people!! TAKE PICTURE!!!
[everyone runs and prepares.....]

~5 minutes before Big Splash 08'
location: next to torrens river
walking orange in sight!! NOW EVERYONE!!!

wha... you all really ah??
of coz la... come come.. take picture~
ok everyone.. come we take group picture 1st
come everyone... TAKE PICTUE!!
yay~~ ok ok.. ei.. you must be in front la...
har... ok ok.. ok....
[inocent walking orange steps right into the trap]

the walking orange is in position..... ready people~~

Suddenly~~
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AN INTRUDER APPEARED!!!
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oh NO!!
[siren sounds goes off]
HOLD THE PLAN!! DO NOT SPLASH!! I REPEAT!! DO NOT SPLASH!!!

phew.. INTRUDER did not harm Big Splash Plan!!
back to original plan!!! TAKE PICTURE EVERYONE!!!
[everyone groups behind the walking orange.....]

ONE.... TWO!!! THREE!!!!!

BOMBS AWAY!!!!!!!! SPLASH HIM!!! DRENCH HIM!!!!
CHEMICAL-X!! GO!!
THROW ALL YOU GOT!!
BRING OUT THE PAIL!! POUR OVER HIM!!!!

the walking orange: what the....... @.@

MISSION ACCOMPLISH!!

p/s: no oranges were harm in the making of the big splash 08'
p/p/s: this is only the author's opinion behind the scenes.. actual happenings are unknown
p/p/p/s: this is meant to be entertaining.. i believe you all are not that evil anyway
p/p/p/p/s: this is not an assassination plot to kill/destroy the walking orange.
p/p/p/p/p/s: part of the parts above are actual events!!

actual events will be posted asap.

Friday, October 17, 2008

the orange

YESSSS!!!!!!
I MADE A DAY WIHOUT A SINGLE CAFFEIN ENTERING MY BODY!!!!!
MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

but i did had
a sore throat
2 panadols
1 cup of orange + pineapple + apple juice
lots and Lots and LOTS of water
1 hour at 10 in the morning ( woke up at 830 for a 9 oclock tutorial >.<)

ITS A GREAT STEP!!! for this caffein addict.....
wondering should keep it up for tomorrow............

playing tag game with mr nose and mr cold again... got tag by Mr Cold and Mr nose is running away..... =S

orange is currently busy steamrolling over his assignments and therefore there will be a short drought here....... =P

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

in the eyes of photography...

they say pictures tells a thousand words, and with a photograph, the memories will be preserved. being experience a job of a photography for 3 days and 2 nights, other than 1st aid guy, guide, angel, PA, loud speaker, attention seeker, , etc etc.., made me realise, we are missing a lot in our life.

camera checked, battery.. full power.. memory card, reformat.. hmm what else??
crap.. my card reader!!!

of course the job of the photographer is to take photos.. but what photos should be taken?? is it the photos of himself/herself, or the photos of others?? or photos that shows a special moment, happy moments or sad?? the cheerful ones?? the tired ones?? how bout the ugly ones?? with the wonders of technology, i think i manage to cover most of them.. or at least a few of them. this job made me realise, photos really bring joy to many people around. though taking photoes means i cannot join many of their activities, their games, dances and all, but, looking at everyone enjoying all the activities through the screen of my camera is fulfilling enough for me.

"can i take a picture of you please????"
"err.. yea... "(sets up tripod and camera)
"ok.. now press this... "
[press button]
"yay!! can i see can i see can i seeeeeeeee?????"

photos that are taken only come once and once only, when the moment pass, the memories will be gone forever. for here, i am grateful that there are other photographers that helped me to cover the whole event. thou i know and understand that photographers have to be there the whole time as these special moments will not repeat it self, but a photographer cant cover the whole event himself and for that he is grateful that there are many others that helped him capture these special moments.

"ok.. everyone please look here.... "
[no one looks...]
"everyone look here.. "[abit louder]
[no one looks]
"fine...."
*snap*
"oh man.. this ugly pic is so going to be public!!!"
*grins*

i admit that always being there on every activity is not an easy job physically and mentally. and i admit that i under expected the job of a photographer before the camp. i didn't know i had to do so much running and screaming around. finding the best angle, brightness and of course the best looking people in the camp... hehehe. also must make sure i got everyone in action in camp right?? if not people will say i am unfair. Nevertheless, however bad my job describtion is, i enjoy myself, a lot.

"do you want to tell him whats the bear's name??"
"yes"
"okay... go tell him what is the name of the bear"
"whats the name of the bear??"
"susan"
"oh.. hello susan.."

like always, in camps the free times are the most memorable ones, especially when this is a kids camp. sometimes its so so nice and touching to see kids being so innocent to other youths. as all youth members are allocated a child to be taken care and also being a guardian angle to another. taking care of a kid isn't easy i must say. thou i have previous experience being a tutor to primary kids, but this is slightly different. what i enjoyed most is to see the kids play and enjoy themselves while the youth is busy with their own stuff. the selfless-ness of the kids is beyond comments. i seen kids serving a cup of water to their guardian hugging their guardians tightly as if they the kid knows the guardian since birth, and many many more..

"i smack you then u know
"HEY DON'T SMACK MY GUARDIAN"
"whalao... im your teacher ok..."
"HE IS MY GUARDIAN!!!"

of course preparing for a big event like this takes lots of effort and time. personally i know many that are involve working behind the scene in preparing the event. i know they spend so much time and energy in the camp, i also know they complain a lot.. haha.. these people working tirelessly behind the screens deserves the biggest hugs and the loudest claps. they not only do their parts, but also cover work of other groups as well. not only that, they spend quality time with the kids in the camp too. with this people, i greatly respect and salute to you guys.. great job. if you are wondering that whether the kids will remember you, trust me, they will. as a photographer, i seen the hard job done by many people. those that did the booklet, those that prepare for the dharma classes and also those that prepare for the games. for those that spend time with the kids, those that do beyond what they are suppose to do and many more.. they spend so much time just for the kids... i am kind of touch that there are still caring people around. seriously i am.

"Wenqi!!! i want to see the pictures!!!"
"sure.. here.. use my computer"
"OMG... this is so ugly... DELETE!!!"
"hahahhaha.... no.. cannot delete!!!"
"put it in facebook!!!!! muahahhaha"


we have only 2 eyes and only see things one at the time, our minds are not perfect as we will forget our past. with these photographs, not only the memory will be preserved, we could also see many other things that we missed at that particular time. when the moon is shining, and the kids are sleeping, sitting next to my trusted compaq, i looked through all the pictures taken on that day, thinking back, if anyone will appriciate al the pictures taken. at least for sure i am, that i myself have lock the memories of the day right into the camera. the only wish i have is that i wished i spend more time with the kids and not with the camera.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

guardian angel

hiding behind the scenes, looking after the special person. you take notice on their daily events, their games, while they eat and all, yet you know they don't know they are being watched by a guardian angel. you wonder, if they were aware that they were being watch.

"ok masters, now you can write a message of encouragement to your angel, get a roommate of the angel to place them on their bed tonite."
"hmm.... who's my angel ah??"
"oh.. i know her.. easy job"

writing these messages isn't as easy as i thought. words of encouragement, and advices, yet you cannot tell them who are you. nevertheless, i wrote what i have in mind, following an advice given to me right before the camp, "use your heart". alrite message written, although others attached sweets and candies on their message, i choose not to, as i thought mine will not eat the candy. i handed the letter to the roommate and go on with my work. many others put much effort in making their message beautiful and attaching sweets and chocolates to them.

*being shaken awake*
"are you my angel??"
"huh" [still in blur state]
"i know you are my angel!!!"
"oh.. no i am not..... sorry.."
"oh... then you are my guardian!!!"
"hahahaha.... "

i wrote the normal greetings, 'how are you' and stuff, then i congratulated their team effort and my angel's leadership. thinking what else to write, i remembered that we already know each other before this event. the time i was my angel's group leader and now i am my angel's guardian angel. how small the world is eh?? nevertheless, i ended my message with some blessings and wishing my angel all the best for the next event. not being able to be with my angel most of the day made me kinda guilty, so i told myself to try to put more attention to helping her in the following day.. quietly.

"i have no wings nor ring, yet i am your angle angel guardian. how are you doing today?? sure must be tired after the long day right.............."

given the job in camp to photograph and observed, i realise there are many occasions that the angel and the angel guardian are so closely together yet both of them don't realise that they are there. maybe is fate that brought both together yet also fate that hides them the truth that they are related in some ways. there are pictures that i realise that the angel guardian is just next their particular angel playing around and enjoying cracking jokes and laughing together... yet they didn't realise that. i wonder how many other occasions that we are related to the person next to us throughout our life.

"are you a malaysian???"
"yeah.. i am.. "
"so you are my guardian angel then!!!"
"huh?? no.. why say so??"
"coz the letter say that my angel guardian is a malaysian"
"hahaha, there are plenty of malaysians..... HEY MALAYSIANS RAISE UP YOUR HANDS"
[half of guardian angels raised their hands......]

in that night.... we receive the reply of our angels, of course most of them question who are we, and as usual, we didn't put any answers out. nevertheless, some receive touching messages, some didn't receive any replies. yet, i received mine fold nicely. reading the message made me laugh, as my angel didn't know who was i, yet we were group members before. replied the message again, and move on with my activities. in my heart, i know my angel is safe, happy and enjoying herself out there somewhere. receiving their reply gave us all much laughter and joy, forgetting all the tiring times we had in the day. what goes around comes around... words of encouragement given by us has also encourage us to do better for them, as we know, all our efforts will be noticed and will be remembered.

"ok.. who do u think your guardian angel is?? just point"
"erm.. camera man??"
"no, i'm sorry..."
"try again.. just point"
[points to some1 else]
"yay!!!! thats your guardian angel!!!"
[guardian angel gives a big hug to the little angel]

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

angels in disguise

as you leave your room right before you close the door, the bottle of water which you left at the edge of the table drop. you re-enter the room and while you pick up the bottle, you notice your house keys are on the table.

as you almost cross the road but you forgotten to wait for the traffic to stop, you saw something interesting on the ground. as you look towards the road again, a car zoom past you and you realise if you did not look on the ground, you will be hit by the car while crossing the road.

you had a rough day. you want to finish off the day by sleeping for the next 18 hours hopping everything will be okay once you wake up. right before you sleep, a old friend gives you a ring telling you that he/she is having a bad bad time as well. both of you talk about how bad things are and at the end, both of you feels that what ever that happens which made your day crap isn't that bad after all.

you walk to a traffic light where you need to cross the road. and every time you walk towards the traffic lights, the traffic lights will turn red and stop all cars giving you the green light to cross the road. every day, at the different hours... is this pure timing or something else??

as you were sitting right in front of the lecture hall, right before the lecturer enters, your phone ring loudly. your friend short message you asking you out for lunch. you quickly reply the message and you realise your phone is not in the silent mode. right after you change it to silent mode, the lecturer starts the lecture. in the middle of lecture, you recieve the phone call. if your friend didn't message you, your phone will be ringing in the middle of and everyone will be staring at you.

these are the 5 examples that i had encounter before which i couldn't stop thinking, why sometimes life is so amazing that as if there are someone protecting you even you cant see them around. some might say they are angels in disguise, some might say its just fate that u see them, or some might say they happen, without any explanations.

sometimes life gives us wonders that we can't explain. to those that believe in god, they might say god is guiding them in life. as for others, maybe the 'spirits' of their beloved stays with them, protecting them in anyway possible. as for others, they believe that this things happens for a reason beyond explanation. the feeling of the 1st situation where something made u turn back your original plan just to 'let-u-know' that u left something behind always gives me deeps thoughts.

as i am quite a forgetful person, these 'signs' didn't only happen once.. but quite a number of times where right after i leave my room or my front door, a sudden feeling of the urge that i need to go back into my room comes to me. and if i follow my 'feeling' somehow or rather, i would find something that i suppose to bring out on that day whether is my keys, my notes, or my over due library books. even if i am late and i am rushing out of the door these things will happen. is this the act of the sub-conscious mind or the act of the 'higher-powers"??

there are many stories saying that 'if i didn't went to somewhere sometime, i will be dead' kind of stories around. and always if i read them, i always wonder, why does it happen to 1 and not others?? why is he so special?? or are we saying that is not his fate that some thing good/bad will happen on him/her?? have you ever wonder why it happens??

as life moves on, we will all experience things that is very hard for us to explain. some might just take it as their lucky day or there are some signs from/for something/someone. as for me, i am just thankful that there are these tiny signs that could help me in making my day a better one.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

kitchen

they say experience can teach you many things. and holding on to my part time job for 2 months, well, i gain some stuff.... you know you are in the kitchen when..... obviouly, the job i had before as an teaching asistant and the job now is a whole different world... so yea.. here it goes~

before going into the kitchen:
~what ever you bring.. a pair of rubber shoes must not be forgotten
~black is the color in the kitchen. is not because we look good in black. wait.. we do look good in black. =)
~after a while working.. you will notice that a cup of coffee will make you more alert in the kitchen. drink before going to work. COFFEE not alcohol.. COFFEE!!
~DON'T BE LATE!!! receiving phone calls from the restaurant in the middle of the day is never a good thing.


in the kitchen:
~you will pick up skills to be lazy with the same out come... or at lease look the same..
~the receptors in the hand will stop working for the whole time while you are in the kitchen. what ever cuts, scratch and burns will only be notice 30 minutes after you leave the restaurant. or when you notice blood all over the things you touch. as for burn, you will see you burn youself before you feel the pain. you will go... shit i burn myself (visual reflex) then... OUCH!!! (reflex action)
~sensors in fingers will evolve to calculsensors that when you take something, it will be the exactly the amount you want. 4 long bean, 4 broccoli, 4 capsicum, 4 carrot stick, 4.... 4.... 4.... 4....
~you will learn a whole new different kitchen language. exp: corri, roti, yellow and mango. and 'hot plate take away' doesn't exist.
~you will curse when there are too many people, you will also curse when there is nothing to do.
~watch out for flying empty plastic boxes
~microwave is your best friend in the kitchen
~every time you cook the rice, make sure u switch the rice-cooker on. if not.............
~time flies so slow that after washing a pile of dishes, clearing the dustbin, cook rice you only realise eh... only 30 minutes ah?? so slow de???? (this is because you are going so fast that it seems like the time slows down.. initial-D principal). it use to take 1 hour when i just started. =)
~you make so good friends with the kitchen items that you know which rack of the dish washer can hold 5 plates, which can whole 4, and you will know removing which bowl will cause others to fall onto the floor.
~washing dishes become so normal that, you ca fall asleep standing but your hands keep washing the plates.
~you will not like waiters that never clean the plates that is left in the corner..
~' i dont know', 'anything' or 'whatever' means chinese fry rice for staff meal.

back home from kitchen:
~1st thing you notice... you stink.
~apart from band aid, moisturizer will be your second best friend to fight against the main enemy, the dish washing soap.
~when ever you go to a restaurant and order, you will automatically imagine the whole process of cooking the dishes. and you will be nice to the people in the kitchen when the food is slow if the restaurant is busy.
~you will try to avoid to order certain dishes because you know its pre-cook and only reheating is needed.
~you will not share all this things all over the place because you know you are working to people that are closely relate to your friends.. so close that what ever you do in uni will be known in the kitchen
~your meal time are so screwed that you will have lunch at 3 and dinner at 12.
~when you cook at your own kitchen, you will always compare it with the kitchen at the restaurant.

i shall not tell you where exactly i work. and all above are just my point of view and nothing to do with the place i work. so yea... writer will not take any responsibilities on any outcome from this post.

Monday, September 8, 2008

the orange~ health science

warning: content of this post might be sensitive and harmful to certain readers.. proceed at reades own risk.

being studying under a health science course(podiatry), and being able to understand more of the human body than many others, makes 1 really think hard when there is some weired feeling in his/her own body. for me, as a anatomy and physiology student, (and some biomechanics), people's leg pain interests me very much. (i know this phrase sounds wrong). and, of course the clumsy me is full of musculoskeletal pain and cuts n bruses all over especially after i started working.

nevertheless, being a podiatry student, wait.. i rephrase.. being a anatomy, biomechanics and physiology student, people has begin to shoot me with all kinds of foot problems. stuff like, eh... my foot pain.. how?? or, there is a growth at some where, somehow, and some color.. wat's dat?? like i say, peoples pain interest me.. the phrase interest me and 'i-know-wats-wrong-with-u' is so totally different. how on earth i know whats wrong with your wat ever foot problems as i haven't even start learning any foot conditions yet. i know.. i know.. i am a pod student but then, A STUDENT HERE means i am learning... i am not working or treating any1 yet ok?? i don't even know whats wrong with my 1st metsophalengeal joint and both of my knees how am i suppose to ans all the questions?? mayb i can answer your question in 3 years time given your leg is still with you. GO AND SEE A FREAKING DOCTOR orPOD or BOMOH whatever you want!!! they are there to answer your questions...

nevertheless, being a biomechanics student in podiatry means we have to understand the way people walk, sit, and stand n stuff. which is interesting as some of my course mates have the same experience as i am. we 'accidentally' look at people's ass/legs etc. etc. when they walk. then we will go.. oh.. this guy has a pelvic drop... or his calcaneum is inverted.. or hey.. small feet.. or.. hmm.. i can see your gastrocs.. or 'wow.. sexy legs... 'ops.. too much observation.. thou is weired.. but then.. hey.. we have to apply what we learn right??

and as a physiology student, we understand how the body works more than many others... the way the body wiring and plumbing, the security system, and of course all the disease and disorders. which makes people like me.. erm.. kinda paranoid? oh man.. i am not gaining weight.. my thyroids are abnormal... or.. my joints are aching.. damn.. arthritis.. or we go.. our food goes into our mouth.. stomach.. [includes 1000 word long process]. even when we eat.. we think of the effects of our food.. diabetes, high blood pressure.. heart attack.. oh man... i am so not going to eat anything.... food kills... they really do.. =/

and again, as a anatomy, biomechanics and physiology student in podiatry. I DO NOT DO FOOT MASSAGE. STOP QUESTIONING ME ON FOOT MASSAGE. IF YOU WAN A FOOT MASSAGE GO THAILAND OR BALI OR SOMETHING.. DONT COME TO ME AND GET A FOOT MASSAGE OR ELSE I AM GOING TO REMOVE ALL YOUR FOOT MUSCLES LAYER BY LAYER... AND YES.. THIS IS A THREAD. AND YES, I HAVE A DISSECTION KIT WITH ME AT HOME.. DONT YOU TRY TO TEMP ME IN USING MY SCAPLE BLADE AGAIN.. I AM HAPPY TO GET MY OTHER FRIEND TO DISSECT YOUR FOOT AGAIN. WE GOT HIGH GRADES IN DISECTING LEGS AND FEETS... the nerves in your toes all comes from the same nerve and is not related to your eyes mouth ears or something... so yea.. NOT RELATED. (at least in the western medicine field). yea.. dats all...

p/s: yinng, al da best in UK ya.. =)

Saturday, August 30, 2008

the orange - august sum-ups

given the last 3 lame, boring and 'cold' post, its clear that my life here is kinda boring and nothing much is happening except of lots to study, work and erm... study. and of course, my 'new best friend' is still my new best friend and yes. i still think that sleeping is bad for us. and no, u cannot laugh at my best friend and no, i cant go to sleep just yet. anyway, just some slight updates, before dust starts to gather here...

its august!! there are many things that is celebrated in august. of course the main ones are my both parents birthdays which are only 10 days apart. happy birthday mum and dad, best wishes and best of health to you both there. looking forward to see both of you soon in adelaide end of the year~. =) =) =)

in august also we celebrate our national day. sadly, the current condition of malaysia, the political turmoil, 'semi police state' status, media blackouts and censorship's, blogs firing at each other, and of course the latest one, anwar is back into the government as the head of opposition. though i have not been closely following the political news in malaysia after the march election ( i kinda miss out the exciting news between najib and RPK and the new anwar sodomy accusations), its clear that many malaysians think the current prime minister is going to tear malaysia apart. this are quite clear in blogs where people are calling our current PM to step down form his post and let someone else to do the job. they sounded like malaysia is going to sink to the bottom of south china sea and the only signs of the existence of malaysia left are a new island form call kinabalu island and the tip of petronas twin tower sticking out of the sea, posing threat to passing by ships. can some1 enlighten me on this issue?? there are reports on the website where many people wont be as patriotic this national day. and there are attempts to raise the national flag up side down to show signs of protest towards the current government. silly, stupid, lame, or appropriate??

on a lighter note, I WAN A BACK MASSAGE!!! BAAAAADDDDDLLLLLYYYYYYIIIEEEEE!!!
i never enjoy massages before, because i never have stiff muscles before. but recently, for some unknown reasons, my back muscles are like pulling my shoulders backwards, as if trying to split my chest open. so i got 1 of my physio mates to try massaging on me... and it works!!!! it kinda loosen up for like a night... and its stiff again... so so sad. must get them to massage again. hahaha.. lesson of the day, make good friends with health science students =)

as for my caffeine therapy, i did a detox last winter break, and it kinda works for the 1st week after uni started, and now... lets just say we got back to square one. hahaha.. i love coffee... =)

as for my job, i have already work for 4 weeks there and i am getting use to the cycle there. my body is not as tired as before which is good. i use to feel like shit before especially of fridays, going to uni in the morning and try not to kill myself in the kitchen at night. now its kinda ok. just need to balance my time well. somehow i don't really know why i choose to work, its not for the pay or i have TOO much free time. maybe is just the experience. my friend told me once, being busy means i am not wasting my life. so maybe yea, i am not wasting my life at home. haha.. anyway, working injuries has reduce to at average, 1 injury per 2 shifts compare to 1 or more injury each working night. dats why i made new friends with band aid. anyway, i will most prob stop working in october to give way to my studies and exams and super duper blardy stupid assignments.

my brain now is pilling up with tonnes of 'wondering thoughts'. and my concentration level is down the drain. i need brain food. *craving craving craving*. i use to be able to deal with this thoughts before through some concentration methods, but somehow, i cant get it started again.... i need someone to enlighten me on this issue as well.. anyone with any ideas?? maybe ginko helps.. haha..

i need a break.. seriously.. i need one....

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

internet connection

i am now in a corner of uni, banging on my keyboard and with great joy, i am announcing~

i had my wireless connection set up in UNI!!!!!!
*happy*

there goes my internet quota...
muahahhahaha

btw, happy birthday TY~

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

8 reasons sleeping is bad

warning: this post carries extream meanings and read with reader's own risk. writer will not hold any responsibilities on any outcome of the post.

8 reasons why SLEEPING is BAD

1) sleep is a waste of time.
have you ever calculate how many man hours wasted in sleeping?? imagine if 1 person needs to sleep 8 hours a day. (healthy amount of sleep). we waste 56 hours a week for sleeping. a month we waste 224 hours. imagine how many things we can do with 224 hours of MAN hours.

2) people get killed/raped/rob in their sleep
how many cases have you heard that robbers break into a house of SLEEPING occupants, rob their money, rape the female occupants and then kill them?? will this happen if non of them are SLEEPING?? NO right?? if we do not sleep, robbers will not be able to enter our house unnoticed and then all this sad things will not happen.

3) sleep kills.
there are reports that people died in their sleep due to unable to breath(babies) and adults(heart attack). some babies that were not place properly in their beds will cause sudden infant deaths as they will roll over and their faces will be press again the pillow and then.. suffocate and die. as for heart attacks, many adults will be safe if they were not sleeping that time. heart attacks usually comes with symptoms. how on earth the adult will feel the symptoms when he/she is sleeping?? with the symptoms they can get help to prevent heart attack. but no, they are sleeping.. how to get help??

4) sleep are road killers
how many accidents are cause by sleeping behind the wheel? if humans are not to sleep? how nice will that be? the police will have less cases to deal with. the firemen will see less bodies. hospitals will have more time to deal with much more serious cases. and people can make road a safer place. so, again i prove myself, humans should not sleep.

5) sleep causes lose of jobs and a slow economic growth
heard of the reason being fired from job because he slept during working hours? napping is a kind of sleep too. when 1 person sleeps in a job, MAN hours are wasted again. PLUS, causing no work done, making the economic growth of the company slows down which then literally slows down the economic growth of the whole country. who to blame? the people who NEEDS TO SLEEP!!!!

6) sleep contributes to the increase use of natural resources.
people sleep on beds. beds are made of material of natural resources exp, wood, metal, etc etc. mattress are made of synthetic material, which is not bio-degradable. so, when you are done with your mattress, what will you do with it? it will not rot away and u have successfully contribute to more rubbish to the planet. are you happy with it?? i have not calculate the amount of resources to build BEDROOMS.

7) sleep causes grumpiness
wake a sleeping person up. and most probably he/she might be grumpy. will that person be grumpy if they don't need to sleep? no right? not only that, sleep also causes people to be depress, unmotivated and lazy. people who are lack of sleep will show signs of lack of motivation and not willing to perform task at their optimum output. if humans don't need to sleep, the world will be so much more a cheerful place

8) sleep contribute to drug addiction
how many people especially students rely of caffeine to keep them awake and going throughout the day? how many nocturnal drivers take stimulants to keep them awake while performing their task? caffeine is a type of drug and its addictive. and brings negative effects to the body. but why people still takes them? their reason will be LACK OF SLEEP. if humans need not to sleep, then there will not be a reason for them to take caffeine anymore.

with this 8 reasons, clearly shows that SLEEP CAUSES DEATH, LOST OF TIME, POLLUTING THE WORLD, AND ALL THE BAD STUFF THAT'S HAPPENING TO US. and all of this comes from something lots of people crave for. SLEEP. humans should be build to not sleep.

SLEEP KILLS!!!

p/s: this post is by a tired person which wants to sleep but cant due to there are things needed to be done before he is able to do so. and yes, he is grumpy, a drug addict, and he regreted that he had to contribute to more rubbish to the world.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

my new best friend

coming back in the cold,
with cuts and wounds,

cleaning them stings me,
yet i have no other choices,
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as fast as possible i go,
to get my new best friend,
'showing' my cuts to my dear friend,
and my friend said
don't worry, i will make u feel better.
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my friend is soft and gentle,
yet strong in a way,
protects me from further pain,
and cover my wounds from everything.
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my friend sticks to me so naturally,
we click so well that i don't realise i am not alone
yet, doesn't limit my actions
my friend is someone everyone trust,
and believe in the wonders of the its job,
i like my new best friend very much.
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p/s: i included a picture of my new friend bellow~
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picture of my new best friend(s). it comes in 20 per box.. hahahhahahha

Thursday, August 14, 2008

the orange

uni had already started about 3 weeks and i still cant get the momentum going. the study 'ball' is still sitting there and gathering moss, fungus, mushrooms, and i think spiders are going to call it home soon. nevertheless, there are so many many many things happening til there is no time for this.

a little updates, i am now currently working now =) i got a part time job at a restaurant as a kitchen hand. its kinda funny. for the 4 weeks of holidays, i didn really went for a job hunt. but when uni started, i got my 1st job at the 1st week of my 2nd sem. so now i am working during the weekends nights and earning.. erm... some money =) looking forward for holiday trips =) yay~

next. i am officially an aussie blood doner~ i had just donated 470ml of blood and safe 3 lives~ haha.. no biggie actually. went to the red cross to donate blood for fun. and got poke 3 times. 2 on a same day and 1 more 5 days later. initially i went last friday with a group of friends. and for blood doners, before donating u must fill in couple of forms and also pass the haemoglobin test before donating. well i pass all of them. but, something happen during donation. they poke the big huge needle into my left arm 1st. well, everything goes well in the 1st 5 seconds, until i saw my blood shoot out of the punctured hole. so, they tried on my right arm but my vein was too small for the huge needle. apparently, there the needle slip because the blood pressure in my vein was so strong that it push the needle out of my body. how cool is that?? hahaha.. so dat was the 1st 2 holes. the last one was from yesterday. which i manage to donate without much hassle. services for blood donation here is very good. free food after donating too =) hahaha..

busy with uni stuff and catching up with time now. 1 assignment, 1 presentation and 1 reading report due next week... sien wei~ stupid stupid subject....... *curse*curse*curse*

dats all for now~

p/s: mayb i have to practice metta soon.....

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

podiatry

its already half a year doing this program in the 1st year of my uni. as time goes by, many will ask me whether i am really interested in the feet making me sound like a feet maniac or a serial rapist/killer that hunts for my victim tru their feet. and i guess people are just curious that why there are people willing to spend the rest of their life looking at problematic foot/feet.

i had an uncle who use to say being a doctor is a depressing occupation. quoting him "everyday you go to work and see people in sickness, agony and pain. you also will feel depress". maybe some might say doctors earn tonnes of money from their job. but i must say doctors, dentist, podiatrist and many more health care professions earn their daily bread and butter from the suffering from other people. isn't it cruel??

back to my future health care profession as a podiatrist, its kinda disappointing that each time before i start explaining or while i am explaining what is podiatry, question such as 'do you do feet reflexology' or 'are you studying how to massage the sole of the foot' or similar question like those. nevertheless, as i explain, different reaction appears from their faces.

i will here by explain what are the tasks a podiatry will do. from my understanding, podiatrist are people who care for the foot/feet. and the word 'care' here meas we take care of the overall health of the feet. a simple comparison i can make is podiatrist is a specialist to the feet as dentist is a specialist to the feet. and yes, we get to stick needles into peoples feet and then cut their nail off. gross?? better not get and in grow nail then.

things we do ranges from treating feet disorder, nail trimming, care for wounds on the feet, making orthodontics, improving balance, reducing fall-risk, and many many more. those that continue can upgrade to be a foot surgeon which allow him/her to cut open people's feet to change their toe arrangements. hahaha.. not interested in surgery?? how about forensics?? go n train under the FBI to read footprints and help the police to solve cases. no i am not joking. my lecturer is one.. hahaha..

so who i will be treating?? podiatry sees patients from babies to old people. thou there are more elderly patients needed foot care compare to babies. this is due to the inability for the elderly to cut their toe nails properly therefore we will help deal with their nails. also, we are involve heavily in diabetic patients where we try to prevent their toes, feet or leg being cut off from erm.. rotting?? other stuff such as improving posture of the body by altering the feet, improving footwear, doing research for better making better shoes for big shoe companies is also one of our future of choice.

till today, i still can't come out with a solid answer on why i ended up in podiatry and i will be making money out of people's feet miseries. maybe i will go, "oh, he has 3 in grow nails =) my lucky day~" ok.. dats evil.

Monday, August 4, 2008

new sem~

i dont remember whether i did complain about the previous course when all of the pods students were force to take a subject which has little relevance to their future job. nevertheless, it was really a painful task to complete. looking forward after the 1st sem with that subject into the second sem with more exciting and more pod stuff to study.

the 1st week of 2nd sem was kinda ice cold. cold weather doesn't even help to make going back to uni an easy and exciting task. nevertheless, the cold blooded lectures shoots us with assignments already. 2 assignments due in the middle of august. and weekly reading report to submit. more to come... and all this are just given to us on the FIRST WEEK!!!!

its into the 2nd week of sem now. and the weather is getting wetter and wetter everyday. rain rain rain. heat wave is so much more better than winter. thou heat wave means temperature hitting about 40 degrees daily and winter hitting 4 degrees daily and both is not enjoyable moments in adelaide, but given me prefering the warm than the cold summer is always better.

holidays was more fun than i expected. i met more people than i expected and i really enjoy the company. too much of good also is not a good stuff. going to disappoint some of them now i think.. hmmm... dont like this feeling. sigh~

damn... i need some1 to make my study spirit come back. seriously, i need to stick to those that study. peer preasure can work on me. in the good way i mean. at least dats how i study on the 1st sem. peer presure works... =)

anyhow, back to my reading material now. mind set is important. i like uni. i like studying. i like anatomy. i like physiology...... *self repeating*

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Special high intensity training~

Memo to All Employees:
In order to ensure the highest levels of quality work and productivity from employees, it will be our policy to keep all employees well trained through our program of SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (S.H.I.T).

We are trying to give our employees more S.H.I.T than anyone else. If you feel that you do not receive your share of S.H.I.T on the course, please see your supervisor. You will be immediately placed at the top of the S.H.I.T list and our supervisors are especially skilled at seeing you get all the S.H.I.T you can handle.

Employees who don't take their S.H.I.T will be placed in DEPARTMENTAL EMPLOYEE EVALUATION PROGRAMS (D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T). Those who fail to take D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T seriously will have to go to EMPLOYEE ATTITUDE TRAINING (E.A.T.S.H.I.T). Since our supervisors took S.H.I.T before they were promoted, they don't have to do S.H.I.T anymore, and are all full of S.H.I.T already.

If you are full of S.H.I.T, you may be interested in a job teaching others. We can add your name to our BASIC UNDERSTANDING LIST of LEADERS (B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T). For employees who are intending to pursue a career in management and consulting, we will refer you to the department of MANAGERIAL OPERATIONAL RESEARCH EDUCATION (M.O.R.E.S.H.I.T).

This course emphasizes how to manage M.O.R.E.S.H.I.T. If you have further questions, please direct them to our HEAD OF TEACHING, SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (H.O.T.S.H.I.T). Thank you.

BOSS IN GENERAL, SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (B.I.G.S.H.I.T)

P.S. : Now send this S.H.I.T to 5 people who need S.H.I.T in their lives, just not the same person who sent you this S.H.I.T. I have already had my fill of S.H.I.T. Thank you for your time!

Sincerely,
The Director Under the Main Bureau of Super High Intensity Training.(The D.U.M.B.S.H.I.T).
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i got this from an forward email~ and i find it too intersting not to be shared. feel free to spread the joy of S.H.I.T. now i am going to get my share of S.H.I.T if not i will be in D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T. and i think i am in deep trouble if i am stuck to E.A.T.S.H.I.T. i suggest you guys to do so too, as i dont think B.I.G.S.H.I.T and the D.U.M.B.S.H.I.T are people that will joke about this. enjoy the S.H.I.T everyone~

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

the orange~

its 2 days since the 2nd sem, 48 hours gone. and i still cant feel the excitement of the new begining... somebody save me.... i wonder whether is the holiday bug still sucking my blood or the weather is freezing my brain in my skull. and currently, i am under my quilt to collect my body heat. hahaha.. the hottest thing in the room now?? my liver at 37 degrees. hot a not??

temperature in adelaide is currently cold. at average of 13 - 3 daily. it gets worst especially when it rains or cloudy day. waking up, going to Uni in the morning is really a torture. who ever that says they like cold weather, they seriously havent experience winter. and now i understand why people likes to escape the winter. so not fun. i wish malaysian's sun can follow me around now. then everyone will sure envy me one...

nothing much happening happen to me lately. just moving from holidays to my new study period. and i already got my 1st assignment. RIGHT ON THE 1ST DAY!! how exciting. due right in the middle of august. *sigh* and this sem, we are going to study about stuff that is most probably unrelated to the feet. 1 will be spending my 1st 4 weeks on the spinal columb and then move to systematic anatomy. which means, we get to study the guts.. excited? haha.. ok ok..

mind set is important. i like uni. i like to study anatomy. i like uni. i like physiology. i like uni. i like anatomy *repeating phrase to self*

Friday, July 25, 2008

ru shi youth camp

its been a week since i left this camp, where this, i shall call, my official 2008 camp to continue wth my camp tradision 2001. i have been joining camps since 2001 and till this year, it havent stop. this youth camp was organised by youth for youth. which made me think about the age limit of the word 'youth'. i didn't know i am still a youth =) hahaha.. ok i am not dat old. there are older members around. better keep my mouth shut on this before everyone flame me.

"Wenqi, join camp a not??"
"harr?? when??"

anyway, the previous 2 camps was.. well, not challenging at all, and was disappointing (sorry to say that) therefore i didn't keep my hopes high for this as well to prevent further disappointment. So.. the clever me went for a badminton game the night before the camp and only pack my stuff 7 hours before checking into camp. (mistake number 1). nevertheless, the pro camper like me, can pack his stuff in 15 minutes and off to bed. and.. i over pack my stuff instead.. >.<

"wenqi! you are here"
"am i late??"
"nope. ok.. everyone here intro yourself starting from the left"

after 2 hours of badminton and 6 hours of sleep, my muscle was sore all over (lesson learn from mistake 1). anyway, i made it to the gathering spot bracing the cold winter wind on time and off we go to the camp site. upon arrival, usual stuff, registration, unload our stuff and all, and mix around with camp members. Camp members mostly from south east asia region and also aussies. mostly from malaysia. To sum 4 days n 3 nights together, like i said, the camp is organised by youths for youths. and activities ranges from neuron killing thinking, taste bud fooling to physical demanding and being graceful and soft during dancing sessions at nite and in the early of the morning. the events are so proper plan that i had to use my old fungal growing high school camping skills to catch up. it really brings back the good old days of mud and sweat of high school camp back to me. Plus, the all-out commitment given by the committee members really made the camp a great one.

"hey, my name is wenqi. u??"
"hi, my name is *insert name*"
"ah.. "
[30 minutes later..]
"ei.. wats your name d ah??"

all the activities had meaning behind them. from training us to be patient, to trust our leaders, or even to imply the malay saying 'masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang kerbau menguak' [literally translate to: enter a goat pen, bleat; enter a cows barn, moo.]* and many more. there was once all members were blindfold and was call to eat their lunch with hands and blindfold on. you might think its a hard one, but for me i seriously enjoyed my lunch a lot. and i had my 2nd serving. there was also once we need to feed each other for lunch. it was a great experience doing so and understanding how disable people and the care givers feel. other than all those 'torturing' games, we also was force allowed to sleep in the middle of the day for a 'light and easy' time. We even went to japan to enjoy the tea drinking process tru 'tea zen' session.

"ok.. now we need to select a leader, who wants to be??"
"err..... you lah.. i don't want"
"aiyah.. scissors paper stone everyone"
"harr?? i be la.. "
"really?? ok settle. you be leader"

like always, camp activities are not the best parts in camps. the best part is when all of us get together and chit chat, laugh, sing and dance together. the times we had together between meal times, or during our free time where we are free to do anything. we talked, sing, share our past and present and many more. there was also one night when i and 2 other guys stayed up late to prepare for our drama's props.. i didn't expect to see such dedicated members around. those times are where memories come from. of course, the process in preparing our cheer, dramas and debate was absolute fun. i have and will apply this quote from now on. 'enjoy the process and not the outcome, for at every outcome, there begins a new process' i really enjoyed myself being part of my group in being a multi-talented group. its one of the few times when i manage to see all group members come out with their talents through all the activity. maybe i am just over observant or is just myself feeling dat way. i notice that i as part of my team, we come from different backgrounds but with our backgrounds we manage to put in all our strength in preparing for the activities and games. with this wonderful group, although there are no best group award, i feel that we already be the best group =) thanks verdanians.. thanks alot

"EI WAT HOSPITAL?? I DIDN'T BUY HOSPITAL LEH??
"i said your mum needs an surgery.. she is at the hospital..."
"WHAT SURGERY VERSUS HOSPITAL?? GOT MEH?? WHERE GOT??
"I SAID UR MUM NEEDS SURGERY AT THE HOSPITAL!!!"
"WHAT??!?!??!?"

the whole camp was such fun of course goes to all committee members that had put in effort into making it a good one. with their effort, i think the outcome of their effort is clearly shown tru the end of the camp where everything turns out well and all the members went back with a great experience. maybe there are some problems arise behind the scenes, but, WELL DONE committee members. you guys were great. maybe all of you know that already, but i guess i can't stop myself from telling you guys (and gals) that u all are really good. i being a camp committee member before really understands the effort needed to make such camp a great one. special thanks to our 2 group facilitators that give us the support and ideas and also help us in understanding the questions of the drama titles and discussions and stuff. as for the discipline master, duty time was fun, especially i manage to prepare asam laksa [yes.. we had penang asam laksa in camp. something we hardly get in aussie]. programmers, the camp plan was great. the dance was great. the activities was great. the chef(s), thanks for all the meals, to the president, all the best to you in your trip to the largest country on this planet. can catch 1 panda for me?? hahahha... on last time, all committee members, you guys did A GREAT JOB!!~

"ok.. 1st you need to get a partner"
[everyone gets partner]
"now i want you to look into your partners eyes, and feel, what is he/she feeling"
"what??!!?!?"
"just do what i just say till i say stop. start now"
[everyone looks into others eyes]
*3 seconds later......*
"HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAH!!!!"

its been a week past the camp. and people say it takes time to really find the true words to use especially when one wants to describe an event that they really like and to allow a time frame before saying anything stupid. 1 week is enough i guess to really figure out what my mind is thinking (being mindful here =]). i really enjoyed myself a lot. looking forward to kids camp soon!!!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

mindfullness

'please be quiet and i am serious about this'

i crossed my legs, stacked my palms and closed my eyes, reducing the dim light of the room to a total darkness. concentrating on my breathing, in and out. the cold air did not do much good towards the situation. many of the other 20 people were thickly wrapped under their blankets, somehow, my thermoreceptors did not register the cold feeling. the sounds from the factories around the room are the only sounds heard through the silent night. during this time, i tried to reflect back on the pass 3 days i spend here.

'vedana hot to go
H-O-T-T-O-G-O
awhoop hot to go~'

for the past 3 days, it reminds me of the the past me. the me that use to reflect on my life. but sitting in the quiet room, i tried to think about the the things i have done but nothing came into my mind, as if there is a black hole, sucking up all the memories. i tried to go throughout the day from sunrise to sunset, but i just can't remember what had happen during those times, i can't remember what i saw, what i heard, or what i say. i just can't remember

a tap on my shoulder, breaks my thoughts, i got up and walked towards the door.

'walk along the corridor, and observe the wall, and remember to be mindful'

i took the paper lantern, and started my journey into the cold darkness. Questions arises from my thoughts, what am i expecting?? at the corner of the building, i turn.. and saw 4 pictures on the wall with 4 words on each. life, old age, sickness and death. 'hmmm, this is the cycle of life' i told myself, and move on. a row of candles guided me then to another place.....

'crawl through this tunnel, and remember, be mindful'

the light of the torch light i held, shined on something familiar.. 'hey this are the stuff i did for the pass 3 days' what r they doing here??' with my chest on the cold floor, i look around, some memories flow back into my mind.. i crawl along.. and looking at all the scenes.. the tunnel was short and there were too many pictures to be seen.. but i move on quickly..

'cover your eyes, and now you will be blindfold. don't worry, you will be guided along'

total darkness, i trusted my guide along the path of the unknown. a hand held tightly on my arm and another press against my back, being blinded is not fun. for all that you can do is trust your guide. being nervous due to the unknown stiffen my body. my guide sensed the nervousness, and said,
'don't worry, you are in good hands'. i trusted my guide for that's all i can do.

'hold the string and guide your way. try not to hurt yourself. i will now let go'

my guide that i trusted let go. i felt the pair of warm hands leave my body, leaving me alone. 'what are they trying to do??' my heart asked. experience told me, being alone and blinded is not a good thing in this situation. will they do something bad to me?? where does the string lead? how long it takes?? damn, too many questions. holding the string with my left hand, and feeling my way with my right, i crawled along the way. taking each step is hard. negative thought flows into my mind. what will i face in every step?? is there anything sharp?? or dangerous?? what if there is a step and i fall down? will there be anyone around? i pushed on. alone.

'alright. this is the end.. now please follow me'

a pair of hands held my arm and gently push me along in to the unknown. this time, i wasn't scared. for that i know i was not alone anymore. the feeling of being help when you are alone is beyond words. a pair of warm hands touch mine, and said 'oh dear, why are your hands so cold??'. i wanted to answer but the warm feeling just keep me from saying anything. i was then guided to another place, a place i am more familiar with.

'through out the process, do you want to share with us what you feel??'

still being blindfold, a soft voice asked us about this question. my mind reflected back on the previous seconds, maybe minutes, i can't find the answer. i can't tell what i am feeling. i have no answer. but after the whole event, i thought back. the waiting, the tunnel, the journey i made alone, and at the end, the feeling of warm from being touched by warm hands. its journey of life. the times of being alone and being helped by someone when you least expect. i tried to search for the correct words to answer the following questions, but words fail to express clearly what i am feeling at those moments.

being mindful to our surrounding, towards what we eat, see and do. i realise by doing so, we could see taste and feel more than we use to. eliminating the sense of sight really taught me to be mindful on things around us. being mindful doesn't only means be aware of ones surrounding. be mindful also means one must remember that there are many more things that happen without us noticing or knowing. as we breath, someone else will die, as the person dies, others will be born, as one is born, mayb some will be sick. if only one can always be mindful on what is happening, and spend a few minutes of the day, thinking about what is happening around them.

'now you can remove your blindfold'

removing the blindfold and seeing familiar faces around. i am in a familiar place. a place that i spend my last 3 days there. i know its over. with the event over, i bring with me, a new experience.