the orange

its almost a quarter of the year gone, and im currently feeling pretty drain already. given there is 3 more quarters to go, i wonder how this year will end. i might be as dried as the salted fishes they sell back in malaysia. hahaha

anyway, currently having my mid term break. the planned relaxing break isn't happening as usual. my plans are never successful anyway. but, im just relaxing as much as possible to face the 2nd half of the year. i wonder the reason of being in adelaide for too long contributed to the feeling of being drained. maybe i should take a real holiday... physically, the body is fit and ready to go. yet mentally, its pretty much running at full speed. things just keep turning and churning and running over and over in the head. i wonder if that's what a computer feels every time its being switch on. if that's so, being a computer pretty much sucks...

i wonder if we have a button or a spot on our body where, once activated, we could go into a shutdown mode. worry free, not needed to think about. and all. is not that things are bad here.. things are actually better than i expected. but little things when added up kinda makes a whole lot of bad stuff. oh well, will just take down one by one right?? or maybe 2 together... after all im pretty much able to handle it i guess..

its hard to understand people sometimes. sometimes, when u think u understand someone, but the truth is that will never happen. i once told my friend, 'i have lost the touch to understand people..' the thing my friend replied was, 'maybe is not you.. maybe is just people getting harder to understand'. it made me thinking is it true as we grow older, life gets more and more complicated? or is it true that things just get complicated because its meant to be complicated?

people tell me im a fast person. i walk fast, i can work fast, type fast, and also think fast. i been walking fast till sometimes i wonder if that's the reason im not gaining weight. anyway, is being fast that good? is maximizing time really that important compare to being slower?? do you really get a better result if u do something slower but u put less heart in it?? do you 'think-too-much" when you think fast?? do your neurons over fire making you go 'if this, if that, if, if, and more if's?? does being fast really kills??

there are so many unanswered questions running in the brain now.. what, how, why, who, this and that, some are pretty lame and unimportant, and some are things that i should be thinking about. yet, this questions will remain unanswered for the time being. and when the time comes, im sure that these questions will be answered.

for those that reads this and think im in a deep mess, don't worry, im just pretty much as usual.. after all, there are always ups and downs in life right?? there are so many things that i really want now. but the thing that i really need is to slow my brain down. just a little will be good.

p/s: i need some happy post soon.... hmmmmm