election board

3 week of school was a super not nice week.. got an verbal attack by some1 which i didn think might happen.. just a slip of tongue and the world come down... that time it really made me realise the badge i am wearing dont only weight about 500 grams... the responsibility that comes with this badge really weights more than i expected.. way more that enough to drain you out of your spirit mentally and physically and i learn it the hard way... jus a short sentence... just my point of view.. just that.. i got shouted at for like 15 minutes and that sounds like hell broke lose.. after that my mind was blank for rest the day.. and that person wanted me to give an public apology... i wasn't angry.. wasn't mad... wasn't hateful... jus the feeling of lost in this large world.. this time i really need some one to hear me out... i went home early that day and slept and thats the time my friend, jin yii call.. wow.. that was super nice of her.. hehe.. she call to share her prob with me.. and i grabe the chance to made her hear me out.. but not much effect but at least there is some1 i thrust now here right at the time.

thats where i made myself and tell my self to not trust any1 here anymore.. no more close friends... it hurts to think of it.. made me lose my concentration.. i hate to say it but some how its hard to be the person that make the decission. as a EB vice president, what i say will have a long term effect on the school and everyone. this is shown clearly that when we have to eliminate people, we are afraid we kick the wrong person out and keep the wrong person in.. this is when trouble rise..


last week end, (19-21 of jan) i joined a leadership camp as a sergant-at-arms. my job in camp was not easy i guess... i stay awake the whole day except for time to sleep jus in case anything wrong happen including workshops and the sharing moments by the old student councellors while others sleep.. i am the one running around for the members to be at a place at a certain time, i was the one to wake everyone up in the morning although i didn wan to wake up myself.. after thinking back.. i ask.. is there any1 that notice i did this all?? maybe there is maybe there isn't.. maybe this is what they call its ur job so u must do it and not complain so much. but i guess i enjoy making some new friends, talikng to new members, solving problems members face but most of all... learn new stuff and found some weakness in myself.

workshops made me learn that leaders are not easy. but like what i know.. no text book can tell u how to work. u just have to write the text book yourself. people tend to feel workshops are boring and so on... but it manage to grabe my attention away form my book as sometimes i feel that the things that they discuss in the workshops like the probles leaders face are so true but i cant solve it myself. but somehow the workshops cant give me an answer i wan. i guess i have to keep looking for them myself as i always do.

special people do appear at times people get together. you never know how kind of people or how evil the heart of another. but jus for the record, i have recive lots of kindness form the camp commettie and the participants.. i thought i will just walk in the camp and leave the camp un-notice like the foot prints on the beach being wash away by the waves... but i guess the real thing isn't like what i thought. i some how fine this phrase wonderful. Small act of kindness do make one happy. and this happiness really brighten 1 day. i hope i manage to do some kindness to people more than the kindness that i recive.

to the EB's that u see this site(which i wonder if there is any...) thanks for the experience and the wonderful caring of yours especially to the president, Chong Chi, vice president, Yi Sing, Adeline, Chua, Norman, Hasliza, Didi, Chee Hoe, Hui Ying, Norman, Jason, and the year 1's which i cant really remember ur names... thanks alot. u really enlighten my 2 day's and 2 nites there. i will not have know you so well if i didn join the election board. thanks for everything. and lets make this 1 more month more happening and keep the spirits alove!!!

Thanks for everything!!!