1) dusty feet-pink slippers = black feet
2) 7D + 7A = kenawai
3) tuaran mee + chinese tea = Soon Lee
4) Blue shirt + blue pants = school day
5) 7A + walk = SMC + walk = Damai + walk = Fo Sang
6) walk + 50 cents = CP
7) RM 5.00 + student card = movies
8) unser + likas = badminton
9) rice + cold food = dinner
10) check mail + blogging = IT center....
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
the comparing syndrom
i belive most of you have heard words like 'better', 'worst' fatter', thinner' ect. ect. all of this words have a point in common. we use this words when we compare something or someone with something else. am i right?
we came into this world of never ending comparison where people compare one to the other things. people strive to be the better ones and the best will get all gratitudes and praise. while the good ones will be push a side. what about the bad ones?? and also the worst ones?? where they stand?? coming to the point, we are creatures of comparison. we compare things to other things. we compare overselves to other people. people close to us compare us to other humans. and of course we cannot escape this treatment of comparing. lets name this 'the-comparing-syndrom' (TCS)
what is so serious with this syndrom u may ask. here is the answer. lets start when we just came out to this world. i belive that many of us have heard ' this baby is cutter than the other' or 'this is more cheerful than the other' am i correct?? hmm... don't make much sence now right?? lets fast forward to the time where comparing is really a pain in some of our life. erm.. teenage years?? the fat wants to be thin and the short wants to be tall. the smart will compare themselves to the smarter ones and always there will be a fight to be the smartest. some end well and some dosn't
so what is the source of this TCS?? i don't really have the answer. but i can give a point of my own. the source is the way we are brought up. do i ring any bells?? have u ever heard parents compare their child to other child? how good they are, or how behave they are? as the child grow older, the child accademic results will be the comparing tool for the parent. and of course questions like "why people can be so smart and u cannot??". this of course happens to parents comparing siblings together. parents like to compare their child to others. and when the child can't reach their expectations, its either the good or bad will happen.
i just don't get a point here. everyone likes to be the best in my field in what ever they doing including me. but the people who compare always things that we havn't achive our best. no matter how hard we try, there is always someone better. so what are we going to do?? hide in a conner?? we still have to live on right?? why people keep comparing one with another?? is the smarter always the better?? take hitler for example, i belive he is a smart and a superb leader. but what the world think of him now?? an evil person right?? not all smart persons are good. don't get me wrong that i am NOT saying being smart is not good.
no matter how much i say, we still can't escape from this TCS. we can compare when its suitable and try not to compare people who is at their very best. because without the good there will be no better and no best. and without the worst there will be no bad. don't u agree??
we came into this world of never ending comparison where people compare one to the other things. people strive to be the better ones and the best will get all gratitudes and praise. while the good ones will be push a side. what about the bad ones?? and also the worst ones?? where they stand?? coming to the point, we are creatures of comparison. we compare things to other things. we compare overselves to other people. people close to us compare us to other humans. and of course we cannot escape this treatment of comparing. lets name this 'the-comparing-syndrom' (TCS)
what is so serious with this syndrom u may ask. here is the answer. lets start when we just came out to this world. i belive that many of us have heard ' this baby is cutter than the other' or 'this is more cheerful than the other' am i correct?? hmm... don't make much sence now right?? lets fast forward to the time where comparing is really a pain in some of our life. erm.. teenage years?? the fat wants to be thin and the short wants to be tall. the smart will compare themselves to the smarter ones and always there will be a fight to be the smartest. some end well and some dosn't
so what is the source of this TCS?? i don't really have the answer. but i can give a point of my own. the source is the way we are brought up. do i ring any bells?? have u ever heard parents compare their child to other child? how good they are, or how behave they are? as the child grow older, the child accademic results will be the comparing tool for the parent. and of course questions like "why people can be so smart and u cannot??". this of course happens to parents comparing siblings together. parents like to compare their child to others. and when the child can't reach their expectations, its either the good or bad will happen.
i just don't get a point here. everyone likes to be the best in my field in what ever they doing including me. but the people who compare always things that we havn't achive our best. no matter how hard we try, there is always someone better. so what are we going to do?? hide in a conner?? we still have to live on right?? why people keep comparing one with another?? is the smarter always the better?? take hitler for example, i belive he is a smart and a superb leader. but what the world think of him now?? an evil person right?? not all smart persons are good. don't get me wrong that i am NOT saying being smart is not good.
no matter how much i say, we still can't escape from this TCS. we can compare when its suitable and try not to compare people who is at their very best. because without the good there will be no better and no best. and without the worst there will be no bad. don't u agree??
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
is the third day back here.. but still faces of people keep coming in. i still can see things that will appear in Kk now. faces of friends, car's drove by people in KK and many more. now i had to get use to looking at sdk car plates all over town.
back to relfecting on the 6 hours bus ride, before the journey starts, i send out a hand full of messages saying that i will be leaving. and of course, there are replys. in those replys there are long, short, intresting and of cours meaningful. there is even one saying that i owe him rm 1o... sigh.. anyway.. some of them reminds me of the past, the things i have done and also my past expericence that i almost forget. the first times and also the new friends form. i didn do much this time for this departure as there is lack of time. i plan to call a few but my have low ability to do so.
life goes on, like i always say. but the past will remain the same no matter what we do now. i can't say i am not a IS student just because i don't like IS. no matter what happen i am still and ex-IS student now. with the pictures taken there, and the memories engrave in my mind, thou not really deep, but still enough to make the point. at the end of the day, the most precious things gain will be experience and friends made.
to all the ladies, you are always that pretty and beatiful. you are how you look and of course is a pleasure to know you all. you are always the best. to the gents, you guys have the best minds that i ever seen and hear. with that i belive all of you will succeded in life. don't give up and strive to be the best in everything you do!! take care!!
p/s: i really miss you all now......... :(
back to relfecting on the 6 hours bus ride, before the journey starts, i send out a hand full of messages saying that i will be leaving. and of course, there are replys. in those replys there are long, short, intresting and of cours meaningful. there is even one saying that i owe him rm 1o... sigh.. anyway.. some of them reminds me of the past, the things i have done and also my past expericence that i almost forget. the first times and also the new friends form. i didn do much this time for this departure as there is lack of time. i plan to call a few but my have low ability to do so.
life goes on, like i always say. but the past will remain the same no matter what we do now. i can't say i am not a IS student just because i don't like IS. no matter what happen i am still and ex-IS student now. with the pictures taken there, and the memories engrave in my mind, thou not really deep, but still enough to make the point. at the end of the day, the most precious things gain will be experience and friends made.
to all the ladies, you are always that pretty and beatiful. you are how you look and of course is a pleasure to know you all. you are always the best. to the gents, you guys have the best minds that i ever seen and hear. with that i belive all of you will succeded in life. don't give up and strive to be the best in everything you do!! take care!!
p/s: i really miss you all now......... :(
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
been back to sandakan but getting myself busy with things all around the house.. it seems very different compare to the things i do in KK.. erm.. i think i should put it this way.. there are lot of habits that i need to re-pick up and also drop most of them.. (hearing shouthing of 'men' from ppl)
anyway, the last few days in kk was wonderfully filled!! thanks to everyone. thou the rafting competition didn ended as well as i plan, but still, saturday and sunday was very very very fun!!! i am now being nostalgic to the KK life...
at this time last year.. i was always asking myself why i ended up in KK.. and KK wasn't a nice place that time. people seems unfriendly, weired and problems of mixing around always appear and disappear. then, with all the stuff school held like open day , recycling campain and also exams, its like adding salt to the wound. thats when i really really dislike KK's stagnent life. of course i made it through with a few falls and cuts and no major injuries. and of course when i fall, i will seek shelter and help from my old friends which was never close to me that time...
but now, in the last few days in KK, i really really enjoy myself a lot!! we laugh, shout, have fun, talk, eat, drink play etc etc.. i don't know why, but always the happy moment won't last long. but still its memorable. the things we had the things we talk and do.. was the most fun stuff i ever done in KK.. haha.. this of course many thanks to people which appear wonderfully into my life. i always wonder why didn't you guys appear earlier.. but 2 days is enough to give a deep impresion of life. thanks guys..
the whole journey back on bus yesterday allow me to relfect on the people and the things i do through the whole 1 and a half years in KK. things that i am angry and things that i am sad didn't escape the scrutiny of my mind. althouth in this short time, there are many things that i am sad and angry, at the same time, good and happy things also came pouring in. is just that we have to look for them.
(to be continue...)
anyway, the last few days in kk was wonderfully filled!! thanks to everyone. thou the rafting competition didn ended as well as i plan, but still, saturday and sunday was very very very fun!!! i am now being nostalgic to the KK life...
at this time last year.. i was always asking myself why i ended up in KK.. and KK wasn't a nice place that time. people seems unfriendly, weired and problems of mixing around always appear and disappear. then, with all the stuff school held like open day , recycling campain and also exams, its like adding salt to the wound. thats when i really really dislike KK's stagnent life. of course i made it through with a few falls and cuts and no major injuries. and of course when i fall, i will seek shelter and help from my old friends which was never close to me that time...
but now, in the last few days in KK, i really really enjoy myself a lot!! we laugh, shout, have fun, talk, eat, drink play etc etc.. i don't know why, but always the happy moment won't last long. but still its memorable. the things we had the things we talk and do.. was the most fun stuff i ever done in KK.. haha.. this of course many thanks to people which appear wonderfully into my life. i always wonder why didn't you guys appear earlier.. but 2 days is enough to give a deep impresion of life. thanks guys..
the whole journey back on bus yesterday allow me to relfect on the people and the things i do through the whole 1 and a half years in KK. things that i am angry and things that i am sad didn't escape the scrutiny of my mind. althouth in this short time, there are many things that i am sad and angry, at the same time, good and happy things also came pouring in. is just that we have to look for them.
(to be continue...)
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
IS nite
have been super busy lately.. surprisingly especially after the exams. but still enjoying the fullest of all the time a have. last week was the IS nite and wasn't very happy about the whole thing. especially the siting arrangement because had to spend the whole night with the head twisting to the left.
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another thing is i had to sit at a table without my gang.. once i approach the my table.. in my heart was.. oh no... where is all my friends?? where is vincent?? where is emily?? whew is chik yoong?? but after looking around.. lucky there are familiar faces on the table.. n guess what!! i was sitting with another fellow blogger that i did link with my!! corvina.. phew.. then i realize that i had never spoken to her except for a few 'hi' and 'byes'. haha. in fact i didn know she exist until this year. sad sad sad.. for the last whole year, i didn't know who is corvina.. haha.. anyway.. after the dinnr, had lots nad lots of pictures taken and also exchange of contacts and all those all other normal stuff..
now the good part start. after IS night, we went to had a drink at Tg aru cafe. and guess what i drank?? i drank a glass of house-raynal. is a cognac. which i didn't really know what is it, and lucky i didn't strip and started swiming in the sea.. haha.. then we had a round of pool, then, when to salim and had more food, then went home. by this time its about 4.00 in the morning. haha. then me emily teo, manda, and chik yoong talk and talk till the sunrise at about 5.30. i didn't know that sunrise is that beautiful. and of course i never watch sunrise before. haha.. then by 6.30, we went to damai to have breakfast. during breakfast, we had name a new syndrom known to the medical world.. which is the Chik Yoong Syndrome. this only happens to people who has lack of sleep.. and my following days continue without sleep till about 12 plus this morning. i event went to a beach party and torture a large amount of hermit crabs.. hahaha.. evil me..
so officially, i didn't sleep for about 40 hours straight.. and after 8 and a half hours of sleep which i really really enjoy, i think i am having the CYS now... hmmm....
p/s: i think this blog is weired.. not proper points... hmmm...
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another thing is i had to sit at a table without my gang.. once i approach the my table.. in my heart was.. oh no... where is all my friends?? where is vincent?? where is emily?? whew is chik yoong?? but after looking around.. lucky there are familiar faces on the table.. n guess what!! i was sitting with another fellow blogger that i did link with my!! corvina.. phew.. then i realize that i had never spoken to her except for a few 'hi' and 'byes'. haha. in fact i didn know she exist until this year. sad sad sad.. for the last whole year, i didn't know who is corvina.. haha.. anyway.. after the dinnr, had lots nad lots of pictures taken and also exchange of contacts and all those all other normal stuff..
now the good part start. after IS night, we went to had a drink at Tg aru cafe. and guess what i drank?? i drank a glass of house-raynal. is a cognac. which i didn't really know what is it, and lucky i didn't strip and started swiming in the sea.. haha.. then we had a round of pool, then, when to salim and had more food, then went home. by this time its about 4.00 in the morning. haha. then me emily teo, manda, and chik yoong talk and talk till the sunrise at about 5.30. i didn't know that sunrise is that beautiful. and of course i never watch sunrise before. haha.. then by 6.30, we went to damai to have breakfast. during breakfast, we had name a new syndrom known to the medical world.. which is the Chik Yoong Syndrome. this only happens to people who has lack of sleep.. and my following days continue without sleep till about 12 plus this morning. i event went to a beach party and torture a large amount of hermit crabs.. hahaha.. evil me..
so officially, i didn't sleep for about 40 hours straight.. and after 8 and a half hours of sleep which i really really enjoy, i think i am having the CYS now... hmmm....
p/s: i think this blog is weired.. not proper points... hmmm...
Thursday, June 14, 2007
why blog
during the exam session, i finish a mind inspiring book. chicken soup for the writer's soul. huh?? writer's soul?? orange in writer's soul??.. nah.,. i am no writer... but i found out all writer write to tell the world something.. so this LED start lighting up and i started thinking... i don't write but i blog.. so its almost the same.. so why blog??
i started blogging through frenster's blog on the 21st of april 2005. that time i blog about my 2 best friends, my gang, this and that. then i move to wordpress and also blogger. total i have 4 sites which now is this and i am planing to keep it. anyway, back to the question, why i blog.
many blog just to express themselves to the so call world about what they think, they feel, and they want. but some do it to get attention some do it just for fame and some even earn from blogging. for me i did my blog to keep everyone including myself update that i am still alive and able to function properly. also they are place i release my problems that i think suitable. sometimes somethings is very much better for me to shout it everything out to someone i know but can't really find the person in the place where i am now. this site didn't really serve the purpose that informing people. because i don't think that my old friends know this place. should i tell them?? there is one person i know say that 'bloggers have no life. they share everything to the world' well is up to u to share anyway....
i blog because i am very bad and I MEAN VERY BAD in expressing myself what i want or what i think. i am those that likes to say 'watever lar' or 'anything will do' kind of person. this didn come to me until i played a survival game. the results smack me in the face that i am bad in expressing myself. So from that day onwards, i tried to tell the world what i want.. but still not working. the point is i am bad in expressing myself. so i do it in this blog.. is it useful?? will the things i wan to say reach the recipient?? i really dont know.
the problem of hard to express my points, become a problem in the sense that sometimes people just can't understand me. i can't blame them... but still i need to react to stuff.. i have build up confidence in the past years to talk to people i never meet. i still find it hard to communicate with people face to face.. is not that i am bad in language but still i just can't be myself there...
i use to blog 'thank-you' blogs after events that i am really into. but somehow it don't really work that way. after the last thank you blog, i started thinkin. will the things i type reach the recipient. will the apologies reach the recipient. will the thank you words reach the other end?? will anything there reach out to people out there??
question number 1 Why can't u just say watever you want in front of the people??
ans:i really wish i could use more 'I WANT's but i can't. not that i will faint due to shyness.. is that sometimes that my points i say is not the answers the listeners want to hear. i have been in deep trouble from words i say in the past. so from this experience it tells me that its better to keep quiet at all times. i dislike it,, but to avoid conflicts between another human being, its better i just keep my mouth shut at all times. yeah contradicting withe the expressing out thing i know.. but what can i do. i miss my old friends where they take me as who i am and then i can talk what every i wan. i can even tell tell them they look weired if i think they look weired.
so i blog. to express myself. is there other reasons that i blog?? keeping in touch with friends, expressing myself. i blog to reflect on myself, my action, my memories. when i blog, i think, about what i have done, the rights and wrongs, the goods and bads and almost everything. people tend to think i am realistic. yes i think i am. i think of the world a lot. i love to reflect on my life. plan my future, study my past and live my present.
i dun really care if no one reads this. but i also wonder how many will read this. my list of links is not that long, but still i visit the links when ever possible... and just one word, glad to know there are other bloggers that i know here giving some life to this site. thanks guys.
i started blogging through frenster's blog on the 21st of april 2005. that time i blog about my 2 best friends, my gang, this and that. then i move to wordpress and also blogger. total i have 4 sites which now is this and i am planing to keep it. anyway, back to the question, why i blog.
many blog just to express themselves to the so call world about what they think, they feel, and they want. but some do it to get attention some do it just for fame and some even earn from blogging. for me i did my blog to keep everyone including myself update that i am still alive and able to function properly. also they are place i release my problems that i think suitable. sometimes somethings is very much better for me to shout it everything out to someone i know but can't really find the person in the place where i am now. this site didn't really serve the purpose that informing people. because i don't think that my old friends know this place. should i tell them?? there is one person i know say that 'bloggers have no life. they share everything to the world' well is up to u to share anyway....
i blog because i am very bad and I MEAN VERY BAD in expressing myself what i want or what i think. i am those that likes to say 'watever lar' or 'anything will do' kind of person. this didn come to me until i played a survival game. the results smack me in the face that i am bad in expressing myself. So from that day onwards, i tried to tell the world what i want.. but still not working. the point is i am bad in expressing myself. so i do it in this blog.. is it useful?? will the things i wan to say reach the recipient?? i really dont know.
the problem of hard to express my points, become a problem in the sense that sometimes people just can't understand me. i can't blame them... but still i need to react to stuff.. i have build up confidence in the past years to talk to people i never meet. i still find it hard to communicate with people face to face.. is not that i am bad in language but still i just can't be myself there...
i use to blog 'thank-you' blogs after events that i am really into. but somehow it don't really work that way. after the last thank you blog, i started thinkin. will the things i type reach the recipient. will the apologies reach the recipient. will the thank you words reach the other end?? will anything there reach out to people out there??
question number 1 Why can't u just say watever you want in front of the people??
ans:i really wish i could use more 'I WANT's but i can't. not that i will faint due to shyness.. is that sometimes that my points i say is not the answers the listeners want to hear. i have been in deep trouble from words i say in the past. so from this experience it tells me that its better to keep quiet at all times. i dislike it,, but to avoid conflicts between another human being, its better i just keep my mouth shut at all times. yeah contradicting withe the expressing out thing i know.. but what can i do. i miss my old friends where they take me as who i am and then i can talk what every i wan. i can even tell tell them they look weired if i think they look weired.
so i blog. to express myself. is there other reasons that i blog?? keeping in touch with friends, expressing myself. i blog to reflect on myself, my action, my memories. when i blog, i think, about what i have done, the rights and wrongs, the goods and bads and almost everything. people tend to think i am realistic. yes i think i am. i think of the world a lot. i love to reflect on my life. plan my future, study my past and live my present.
i dun really care if no one reads this. but i also wonder how many will read this. my list of links is not that long, but still i visit the links when ever possible... and just one word, glad to know there are other bloggers that i know here giving some life to this site. thanks guys.
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
sonnet 18
william shakespear
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
sonnet 18
william shakespear
Friday, June 8, 2007
updates
yay i am in now.. thanks to teo.. haha.. anyway here is some updates that every1 is so call craving...
for the past 1 month
1) got band 8 for IELTS
2) in the middle of exams,
3) got drench under the rain
4) move my catus to a new home
5) been cursing blogger because of the lousy connection(ormaybe is the school's line prob)
6) enlighten myself after finish reading chicken soup for the writer's soul
7) been cursing myself for my own stupidity alot while studying
8) thinking alot that now is June
9) thinking how to ferry my stuff back to sandakan
10) thinking stuff as usual
now
thats all for now...
p/s will update the blog that i made last time.. later.. didn bring my pendrive today.
for the past 1 month
1) got band 8 for IELTS
2) in the middle of exams,
3) got drench under the rain
4) move my catus to a new home
5) been cursing blogger because of the lousy connection(ormaybe is the school's line prob)
6) enlighten myself after finish reading chicken soup for the writer's soul
7) been cursing myself for my own stupidity alot while studying
8) thinking alot that now is June
9) thinking how to ferry my stuff back to sandakan
10) thinking stuff as usual
now
thats all for now...
p/s will update the blog that i made last time.. later.. didn bring my pendrive today.
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